weird stuffs

Hmm....
I'm starting to have weird freelings lately that I somehow couldn't explain myself...

1st of all... I already received my invitation cards ~ finally.... and my reaction to it surprised me. I was excited, happy and nervous. Nervous?? wow... u guys know, my hands were trembling when I held it. then my heart beats so hard... I even had problem when I tried to stick the label to it. I almost cry... My God.. what's happening?? all I know is that I really, really love my invitation card =D

then.... dah mulai deg2an banget. satu sisi pingin ceped2 ke hari H n get everything done. tapi di sisi lain juga takut n pingin waktu slow down or even stop itself. hehehe, berasa kaya susah nafas.
Soon I'll be leaving Samarinda and head to Surabaya. kalau udah di Sby, no turning back. sekali balik ke samarinda lagi, aku udah bukan single tapi udah merid. woah.... that must be something...

trus, YES, aku masi blum siap buat langsung punya baby. for those who asked me whether I want a baby right away or rather wait. I would rather wait. tapi hari ini liat Noahnya astrid koq lucu buagedddddd...... ga tahan, gemes =) I hope itu emang gara2 Noah aja yg emang imud. aku kangen terus ama ponakan.

and hari ini, well it's a rough day. jadi tadi pagi di sekolah ada anak TK A yg jatuh n kepalanya bocor. aku lagi di ruang guru, intend to go out. pas berdiri depan pintu, tiba2 Momo (nama anaknya) came crying, pegang kepalanya sambil nangis "sakittt, sakittt" tapi yg paling bikin kaget bukan karna nangisnya, tapi gara2...*tarik nafas* mukanya momo itu bener2 full of blood. and robekan dipelipisnya bener2 dalam n lebar.darah yg keluar banyak bgt n ceped bgt. sampe ngocor tutupin muka. bayangin anak kecil mukanya penuh darah! Hiks. aku kaget bgt, tapi tahan panik ku. ceped2 lariin ke RS. singkat cerita momo dijahit pelipisnya. dia nangis sampe sesengukan, jerit2, aku ga tahan, ga tega tapi paksain diri buat kuat. sampe rumah aku nangis. nangis ampe gemeteran. honestly, aku takut. aku ga tega. aku sedih. aku tau momo udah gpp. dia udah dijahit n ok. turned out momo punya 10 stitches. anehnya aku bisa takut kebayang 1 day my own kid yg berdiri didepan pintu dengan muka berlumuran darah. hiii..merinding. trus realised..well hey... bukannya aku masi lom mau punya anak? and kenapa mikirnya sejauh itu?

sighhh....so confused. I hope ini cuman wedding syndrome aja lah.